Just do it?!

I'm just trying to do what I feel is right for me and I'm not ready yet. Saying "just do it and get it over with" doesn't help either. I'm terrified and I can't help that. I just want to be normal but unfortunately normal isn't possible for me. I can't "just do it", my head is mental blocked. I'm terrified. Maybe it'll never happen for me. I'm okay with that. I'm okay with being me, the same me for the rest of my life. I just don't think you will be. I'm not holding you back. If its too much for you to handle then you know what you have to do...

I just wish people could understand me and what the true issue is....not the issue they think it is.

I can't let what other people think get to me, but to have your own mother think this way kills me!