I've been in a weird jealous/envious mood. I'm trying to focus on getting through the next week because Ryan should be back in Texas by next Friday. My jealousy stems from the other women that are in my position. I haven't heard one thing from Ryan, which I know is because he is working and isn't allowed to, but I'm frustrated because some of the other women are hearing from their guys. I'm trying really hard not to care but sometimes I wonder if it's just because we aren't married and he doesn't feel the need to keep in contact with me or if he thinks I'm strong enough to handle no contact. All I know is, I am going bonkers.
I know I act all tough but sometimes all I want to hear is "I love you and miss you"... Or just say something that lets me know he is thinking about me. I am still a girl.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Living the dream...
Alright we are going to give this a go one more time. I know I keep saying this but I seriously want this to work.
So this blog may become the newest version of how I'm dealing with the transition of living by myself into living with a man that I've been dating (long distance) for two years. I'm hoping that I can handle having him around all the time. I'm just used to living independently and not having to worry about coming home to someone else. I have 32 days to come to terms with the living experience I'm about to jump into. My first falter would be living with someone who, granted I've been with for 2 years, I've never lived with ever. We are literally jumping in from long distance to living together. No in between. I know it will be difficult but if it is meant to work out, it will, right? We both have major things to work on personally and hopefully by living together we can help each other out with those particular faults.
1. Honest to a fault
2. Abrasive with words
3. Stubborn
4. Wasteful with money
The above list is just some of the faults, I have, that could potential kill my relationship....
We are going to hopefully keep this blog up to do a weekly update on how I'm coping with the upcoming transition and after. I honestly want this to work beyond anything else. I want to marry this man so hopefully I won't sabotage anything. :-)
So this blog may become the newest version of how I'm dealing with the transition of living by myself into living with a man that I've been dating (long distance) for two years. I'm hoping that I can handle having him around all the time. I'm just used to living independently and not having to worry about coming home to someone else. I have 32 days to come to terms with the living experience I'm about to jump into. My first falter would be living with someone who, granted I've been with for 2 years, I've never lived with ever. We are literally jumping in from long distance to living together. No in between. I know it will be difficult but if it is meant to work out, it will, right? We both have major things to work on personally and hopefully by living together we can help each other out with those particular faults.
1. Honest to a fault
2. Abrasive with words
3. Stubborn
4. Wasteful with money
The above list is just some of the faults, I have, that could potential kill my relationship....
We are going to hopefully keep this blog up to do a weekly update on how I'm coping with the upcoming transition and after. I honestly want this to work beyond anything else. I want to marry this man so hopefully I won't sabotage anything. :-)
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