So my life is a bit different these days. I only have one dog (Bourbon), and I still have my cat (Byntly). Ryan and our dog (Lucille) are in Dallas. I ended things with Ryan recently and I feel that this was for the better. My only fear is that I will not find a guy that can handle my "baggage", as many of us call it. I may not have kids and I may not have an ex-husband but I definitely have some emotional baggage from my past that I've worked through and continuously work through on a daily basis. I've been told by many guys that what I seek is mainly a deal breaker.I won't go in to horrific details but what you need to know is that somethings women just will not do because of past experiences or just because it does not suite them morally. So "The Hunt" begins...
Part of me wonders what the next year will bring. I'm not allowed to be in a serious relationship all year, this started January 1st and ends January 1st of 2014. I am to focus on school and my career. Making sure to be selfish for my benefit and no one else's. The more I realize these last few years I was never thinking about me, it makes me realize that this year is going to be amazing! Nothing but me on the brain and guys on the back burner. Don't get me wrong guys, I am allowed to date just nothing serious for the next year. (I've always had problems with guys not wanting to date me anyway, so I doubt this will be hard.) High school, apparently guys liked me, but they didn't have the nerve to ask me out in any fashion. I went to prom stag both years. "I'm girl next door pretty" but no one a guy wants to date.
Sorry for the rambling. I tend to do this a lot so bear with me. So here begins the adventure of a lifetime.
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